Sunday, December 17, 2006


What to say?
I have a Christmas tree, I've written cards, I've made Christmas cake and mulled wine, we went to 9 lessons and carols this evening - I'm booked to fly out to the good old US of A to see my family on Christmas Day and yet I feel totally blah. I love Christmas, I just don't feel much like it just now.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Christmas? Surely it's only October?!

Having a wonks phase and things have gone a bit to pieces. Panic and all that - unwarrented, I believe - but that doesn't make it go away now, does it?

I haven't got time for it to be Dec 13th - Christmas is too soon! I need another month at least so I can do all the other stuff, never mind anything Christmassy. And I need my head not to be imagining the worst about every twinge I have.

Bah humbug and all that.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Winning and winning

Wow - I was so excited about winning something in NaBloPoMo - mostly because I really was not expecting to. I never expected to get that email in my inbox or see my blog-name on Fussy, so I've felt a little bit bad reading some of the comments on the Winners post on Fussy.
Now, I'm not calling you all a big bunch of whiners - really! I'm not! (That wasn't the great British sarcasm either) And I'm sure most comments were for humour but I did feel a teensy bit bad that some people felt left out. Would I have felt left out if it hadn't been me? Well, I probably would have felt vindicated in my 'I never win anything, the world is against me, I had cancer after all' gray thoughts - but because that's where my doldrum-my life is at the moment I wouldn't have been surprised. Consequently, I am still quietly, excitedly, pleased. And I get a little smile and I do that thing where you raise your shoulders, grin and kind of wriggle....Hmm, that really is a physical 'thing' not a wordy 'thing', isn't it? All I can say is, follow the instructions: try it out and you'll get what I mean (You will! I promise!). And hey, it is just a t-shirt - a super-duper red Fussy t-shirt to be sure - but it wasn't a bazillion dollars, or something....(unless I can sell it on ebay - can I sell it on ebay? NO! Joke. I am looking forward to wearing it, my good self.)

In other news - my oncology consultant says I am 'normal' - I am bizarrely insulted by this - I want to be 'special' not 'normal'. But, on the other hand it does mean that I'm beating back the beast and for that I am truly grateful. I'd sell my soul to the devil for that, I'd sell my Fussy t-shirt to the devil for that. If being 'normal' forever means I can say I played with cancer and won then I'll take it. Thank you Alison! She always reassures me.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

NaBloPoMo Results!

No! I won a Fussy t-shirt!!
Me, the me who never wins anything,
the me whom I was pretty sure the fates had destined for dismal, catastrophic demise. But no, the Random Number Generator feature in Microsoft Excel was just waiting for me! And very pleased I shall be with my t-shirt - thank you so much M. Kennedy (and the Random Number Generator feature in Microsoft Excel - Excel shall now forever be my favourite Microsoft Office program; except when it arses up my spreadsheets of course!)

So, of course, now I'm saying to myself that perhaps it's a sign! A sign that I am not destined to be sent for rounds of tests at my consultant's apptmt tomorrow. Perhaps the odds are with me! Or, perhaps I just won a t-shirt.
(I won a t-shirt, peeps! Did you know?!)

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Eat, drink and be merry

I think I'm worried about the kittens....that's why I still feel obliged to post.

The dinner, well - it could have been better. It would definitely have been better if we'd made sure the vicar and his wife realised that we'd moved before the day of the dinner....whoops! I may have suggested this at some point over the last week. Hmmm. Yes.
The food did not turn out as well as I would have liked - although I did make Panna Cotta for the first time and that did turn out nicely but the Poor Man's Cassoulet was nowhere nearly as nice as the last time I made it.....maybe it was different sausages, but it should have been *richer* tasting than it turned out. I don't know. Pah.

We also finished the moving and Sibi came and cleaned out the old house - hooray! I was glad we managed to get that done so she could clean everywhere; otherwise it would have been us having to do it next weekend and I can think of other things I'd rather do! (Or, need to do) Such as getting set for our mulled wine and mincepie drop-in in a couple of weeks. Argh! Why do I think these things are a good idea!?
Now I have to make gazillions of mince pies.....

I know something you don't know!

NaBloPoMo was *so* worth it!! Why? Well, you'll just have to check out M. Kennedy tomorrow, won't you?
Hee hee.

Saturday, December 02, 2006

The day off

Well, I had a day off but it did seem strange not to have to post last night; although after I got back from trying to show guides how to do glass painting, teabag folding and talking to one about her BP Challenge work and several others about DofE service work I was mostly ready for bed rather than posting!
Rushing off to see the house (yay! house!) and cook dinner for fancy folks from David's church. Tell you all tomorrow because the new house is, of course, the land of the deaded DIAL-UP.....urgle.