TOO PINK

OK - this pink is seriously off-putting. I can't face writing because of all of it.....
It will change - soon. because I have the time to play with my blog...NOT.

God, I am just drowning at the moment.
My guide unit has dragged me through the mill and let me just say that I've spent far longer than I'd like in talking to girls parents about their behaviour and what is and is not acceptable. Scarier are the parents who encourage their daughters 'to stand up for themselves' - by shouting, swearing and physically threatening. AND I HATE IT! I hate trying to talk to people in situations like this and I hate what's going on because it involves bullying and that nasty snidey, sarky, snarky behaviour that girls can display. And it's hard to discipline that because they're not stupid enough to do it while I'm nearby. Who'd be 13 or 14 again? Not me, for sure!
Arrangements for Peru are doing my nut - we can't decide on accommodation, I can't arrange Travel Insurance until after the end of November so I can say that I'm a year out of treatment and it's just overwhelming - I'm increasingly thinking 'why am I doing this?' I keep reminding myself that it will be a fantastic experience and I'll enjoy it when I'm there but....
And I just spent a lovely weekend with a lovely friend who will have her first baby in about 3 weeks and I am so jealous and she's not even that excited or happy. So not fair.

Gah.